Soliloquy

How Phenomenal it is , when someone rightly said – “We Live By Choice and Not by Chance !”

If there is something which keeps me mostly mind-boggled at times – it’s the matter of Choices that I make - every moment , every day – knowingly or unknowingly , consciously or unconsciously or for that matter choices resulting out of a Don’t-Give-A-Damn attitude sometimes !

The urge to choose something or for that matter Not to choose anything , is itself  a Choice made – and for me the biggest problem starts and ends just on that beat .

It paid dividends and sometimes turned into deadly Blunders – all thanks to the Unawareness of the whole cycle-building process !

This Post emanates from a recent Follow-up , Catch-Up , Eye-balling , Self-Rendezvous or whatever you would like to call it. Things were going a little haywire , Control getting bifurcated and self-arguments turning diversified. Needless to say – not been a Happiness-sprinkling shower in the monotonous dry season !

This was followed by a Recluse , Retrospection and Voracious Reading - carried out in the last 10 days – Online and Offline.

On the same context , happened to notice something – really Queer and unfeigned about myself. We have been so much complaing , thinking and talking about things that We Don’t want most of the times that at the end it takes our eyes OFF from things that  We Really Want !

Looking back , whenever  I felt strangled or got donned in a  Straight-jacket , I found the above words to be ineluctably TRUE !

Flabbergasted and Bewildered  - was my silent Impromptu for So much so was it Resonating to my lifestyle .

So have been trying really hard eversince to bring things Back on Track -

Changed some habits ,

Negotiated with some !

Built some And

Yes definitely Kicked Some !

It’s just a Starting though but the Feelings been monumentally Bombastic !

Suddenly I remember the McDonalds caption words – “I Am Loving It J…..”

Phir Teri Kahani Yaad Aayi !

Tum Ho

Paas Mere

Saath Mere

Jitna Kitchen mein Dekhu

Tumko

Utna hi yaad karoon

Tum Bane Mere liye

Sirf Mere Liye

Tum Ho

Bhookh Aur Aalaas  mein guzara

Mujh Besahare ka sahara

Jaane kaise kaante

Din Tere Bin

Pyaar tera bhool na payaa

Dekh aaj Phir

Tere Dar par Sanam

Mein Chala aaya.

Saath tera ab 

Chodenge kabhi na hum

Likh le yeh vada mera

Hum Dil Phir se de chuke Sanam

Maggie , O’ Meri Maggie

Mera Yaara , Mera Dildaara

Saare jahan mein

Ik tu hi , ik tu hi

Sabse Pyaara , sabse nyaara :-)

P.S. – Naya Maggie ab aur bhi zabardast flavours mein :-)

Small Things , Big Things

Small turns Surprisingly Big Sometimes . For their values are often inherent - un-noticed unperceived and definitely unclapped.

Do you care for the morning newspaper lying at ur doorstep at the regular time on a normal day? No you don’t . But you crave for it on a rainy day when it does not reach on time !

Do you care for the Sweet messages you get everyday before u go to sleep? Well probably you do but not much !
But if these messages go missing , you suddenly start missing them too !

Do you care for the Person who cares for you ? Perhaps you do enjoy and take it for granted as it comes as Regular exercise ! But if they he\she stops doing , then you start valuing them.

The Home-made delicacies , might at some point of time seemed boring. And now when you go back Home after long time , How do you about it ? Don't You Hog ?

The running tap-water , every morning , do you even care ? But imagine it going dry one day , how does it feel ?

The electricity you use everyday , runs on our un-noticed acclaim . How about a day , with no light , no current for an entire 24 hours – does it make you go crazy ?

Do you have bike or car ? Imagine it goes for a service cum repairing for 2 days , would you feel its absence ?

Aeons ago , You were thin and slim and not happy about it. But once you start aging and you get fatty . Then Won’t you be ready to pay any price to get into the Thinner and slimmer Frame again ?

Did you spend your college life , dreaming about the Blue-chip company job and the Fat pay-check . And when you Hit your target ? What happens ? You suddenly start missing your College days ! Isn’t it ?

You spent the childhood , running after the Aim of Life – Engineer , Doctor or an IAS officer . And then when you become one  , you so terribly want to go back to the Old Innocent days , fresh and fun-frolic.

Well if you can relate to all of these my friends , then join the big brigade – for we all are the same here !

Our , up-high and persistent , gaze at the Bigger and Brighter picture so hovers our vision that we often forget to Appreciate the Smaller and Beautiful things in Life.

Blame it on our Ego , sometimes Ignorance and sometimes That's-So-Normal attitude towards things.

For we all know – Routine is so mundane , so terribly boring – we prefer the thrill , the spontaneity , the  adventure – even if it comes with a sky-high Price !

Happiness is just a Mirage if you don’t hold your mind in STILL !

As I distantly heard sometime , somewhere –
“As above, so Below ; As Within, so Without !
Whatever you Think about – and Thank about – you Bring about ! “

So – enjoy the Little things in Life - For One day , You’ll Look back and realize they were  Big Things Too !

Cycle the Circle !

“A stitch in Time saves Nine !”

We All need the inevitable stitch after a Check-up , Make-up , Catch-up or the bloody Break-up !

Sometimes it gonna hurt or pain or thrill ( if you are Lucky :-) ) but that’s all part of the Game – If you don’t do it ,  You have No idea of the heinous price , it gonna cost at the end.

If you are ever letting anyone rise on your self-esteem , then Congratulations my friend – You have won a ticket to Low-life – pathetic , miserable and upside down !

Nobody can ride your back until you are bent !

The thin line which holds the borderline between helping , being used or being taken for granted  so easily goes unperceived , that we don’t even make out things happening under our very nose.

If you ever go through such a phase – Just Pull over !

Re-check and draw the Circle of Trust to pinpoint the access that needs to be given , to whom and till what extent. 

Make sure nobody gets a share of Radius More than what they truly deserve.

Life’s just a Circle – what goes round , comes round – So Draw your own Diameter and make the Circle custom-made  !


I am Drawing My Circle Already . Are You Too ???

To Society - With Love !

Ek Aadat si hain

To kabhi Jaroorat si hain

Majboori toh kabhi

Kamjori bhi hain

Acchai humari

Taqat na banee

Awaaz humari Bejubaan hi sahin

Aur Chahaat apni

Teri nazar mein kam hi sahin

Sach humse Tu bulvaye

Aur Phir use sunn bhi na payein

Vaade humse Tune karvayein

Par khud kabhi na nibhaye.

Har kadam humari

Galat  hi tujhe laage

Teri Rivaazein , teri  Niyam

Ab unse na bandhenge hum

Azaad kiya humne khudko

Chahein ab jitni koshish  karle

Na todd ab yeh payenge hume

Aisi Samaj se hum bahar ho nikle

Ab koi Fikr nahin

Aur koi Darr bhi Nahin

Ab woh karein jo Apna Dil Kahein

Chahein Jo Anjaam ho

K Ab koi Parwaah hi nahin

Rokk sake toh Rokk k dikha

Inn kadmo ko Tokk k dikha

Abhi hume janaa tune hain hi kahan

Maidan mein utar jao jara

Ladai humari dekha hi kahan !!!

It’s a Guy thing

It is said  - All Guys are the same – So True  ! Thought so ? ?

Unfortunately – until and unless you are a Guy , the subtle differences would never mark or mar your eyes – so the point is they are not !

Here is a Glimpse of something from another Guy’s angle -

The Ladies Man - Quintessential , articulate , confident & Romantic – A Perfect Gentleman ! 
They respect ladies , Ladies respect them and they respect that . Always surrounded by the Opposite Sex -  Girls enjoy their company , their talk and the way they would appreciate you. He will bring you Flowers , chocolates and take you to a candle-light dinner. They are the Mass with the Class – suave , sober Fizzing and irresistible . You will be greeted , treated and  smitten. Not to wonder , they are get the Girl and a Superb life , well almost always !  
Perfection is just next to em'.

If You are a Girl - You will Simply Like them , praise them or probably Love them !

The Frustu  – Bet – you might somewhere, somehow have beheld this species – they are omnipresent – at the bus stop , near the college gate , in the Shopping Mall  and the very obvious Movie  Theater . Pick A pretty Lass and you will see a Beeline after, loitering or the smuggling eyes, roving around. Observe closely – you will make out what I am talking about being Frustated. 
They might or mightn't have a Girl in their life - if they do they are not Happy still and if they don't , then Desperate to get One. 

Oh Yes - Don't get excited - They could possibly turn out as the ones – your Mom warned you about !

The I-Don’t-Care Blokes – He is the Carefree bird - a Free Spirit without or with the Class & the Style.  But what they do have in common is oodles of plain , massive kick-A** Attitude - I don’t care attitude . They are the ones - Intelligent , Smart , Funny , Rebellious , Artistic & with A Golden Heart .He  goes where the wind takes him -- and the wind usually takes him on some kind of flakey adventure. He might ride a motorcycle at the weirdest hour  or might skip work to take her on a last-minute Road trip. He Might make you Pleasantly Surprised at times - unplanned & unimagined ! If a Surprise Poem for you is smsed at 3A.M - Be OK with that. 

Nevertheless if they don’t have a Girl – they are Least fickled about it. 
He is not Bad but He is not Good either !

Love them , Hate them or Ignore them – But You just can’t bother them !

So Girls Go Ahead - choose and pick up your Type – Probably One of them is Just Perfectly Made for you !

P.S. -  These are Just the Author's view-point so definitely not non-bushelling. 

3000 sq Feet Reverie

Prolific – the term seconds the opulent Human crave like no one does ! Juggling both the terms sounds a bit of sarcastic though but I am OK with that !

For More you have , more you want ; More you want , more you crave !

Yup ! That’s how we are - Just as simple as that.

Gone are the days when - Roti , Kapda aur Makaan used to be the toast of life – it’s Sandwitch( or a Burger) , Branded wears and Villas now just in the same order , only a bit refined probably .

However ,It’s definitely the Makaan that might spin a wheel in your mind when we speak in monetary terms but what we need – we just need ! Lets be more formal and bit classy to match with the Jet-age – it’s Flat or a Villa ( if you are filthy rich , of course!) .

Ever since , we stepped onto the Corporate jungle to make both ends meet , the money has just blew little more sophisticated air into the desires. Starting with a 2-wheeler and moving on to 4  , the next target is the unavoidable and an edifice reach – a House !

The Middle class sophomore just eats and sleeps now singing for the proverbial possession to keep his head under a roof – a solid one.

1, 2 , 3 BHKs – doesn’t they sound so familiar ? I am pretty sure they do.

The only trembling part in the whole picturesque frame is the Sky-rocketing prices.

The ever surmounting sky-high prices have no lessened the Indian Middle Class’s   resolution to sleep under a beautiful roof with plenty of rooms to ply on. Drilling a hole in the pocket might sound scary but then who cares ? We are talking about one of the basic Human needs and fetching it - is nowhere near a Sin.

But then we are definitely working on it .

We know how to get things straight and done and Be Happy , for sure !

Tu, Tum aur Aap

When You Juggle the Letters and make them Words , You hold all the Relationships , in surplus, onto them !

Prominently enough , we are conditioned to , from childhood of  keeping people in high esteem and appropriate with Pronouns – Grammatical in literal sense but they hold so much of sense from the closeness to effortlessness in our feelings !

Aap , Tum and Tu –  these Relation-bearers  have so profoundly been deep-rooted , that sometimes we are noticeably effortless while using them . Possibly it shows the direct thread of love , care , respect and certain other surreal human sensitivities that impact uttering them.

Sometimes I used to ponder over the whereabouts - why , when , how , where’s of these simple but powerful relationship holders and , more often than not ,been left in lurch , clueless !

The proximity that “Tu” brings , is at par with “Aap” sometimes . And so as “Tum” . Whereas, at times they bring those inexplicable gigantic differences .The proverbial discrimination had always been Un-Surmountable  for me. There are people whom you refer as Aap , Tu or Tum and quite baffling at times why we do so for we are not conditioned to talk so – it’s just a fact that we just do – and Interestingly it fetches us a comfort !

Life is queer and a nonplus-platter sometimes where  the options leave us bewildered and eye-popping ! I have never understood why so but ……

P.S. – I have met people who are so fortunate to be crystal clear about such aspects though !

Bring It On

O’ Pain

You don’t Hurt Me Anymore

I have Grown up and Moved On

You Look Silly Now

For You are Still the Same !

O’ Pain

You don’t Hurt Me Anymore

I have Learned To Live

Love Life and Myself

I Pity You

For You mean Nothing Now !

O’ Pain

You Don’t Hurt Me Anymore

I Like The way You Try

And You Try Harder

And I Just Laugh It Away !

O’ Pain

You Don’t Hurt Me anymore

It’s Not The Yesterday’s Kid

For What You Face Today

Is A Soul which got Burnt &

Then Started  Blazing

Brave & With No Fear !

O’ Pain

You Don’t Hurt Me Anymore

Ruthless and Merciless  - Played Against All

Innumerably Fought to Survive and

Survived to Fight

And Still Keeping the Breathing on !

O’ Pain

You don’t Hurt Me Anymore

Let’s Take the Head-On

I Promise You Something

You Would Go Home Today

With Pain You Have Never Faced Before !

O’ Pain

Just Stop Trying

For You Don’t Hurt Me Anymore !  

Curtain Down

The Show’s Over Today

Go Home now

Start Life Anew

Grab thy Right

And Stay Happy

The Show’s Over Today

Lessons Galore

Make Ends Meet

Lo And Behold

Things Did Change

The Show’s Over Today

Good Things , Bad Things Roll Over

The Street Turns The Bend

To A Mend

And With Bright Light At the End

The Show’s Over Today

Did We understood

Like As they Say

All That Happens

Is Just Only For the Good !

Second Last

Ek chehra tera Chupa Hua

Aanchal se Dhaka Hua

Aankhen jaise kuch kehti hain

Par Samajh usse kyun na payein

Ek Yeh Naadan Dil Hain

Aakhir aisi kya woh baat hain

Jubaan takk jo hain aati nahin

Bas aansra liye ruki hain

Ki kab durr ho woh Faansle

Aankho se Hotho takk jo beechi hain

Kaise Ehsaas Dilaaye Unko

Ki Ek Woh hain

Aur Woh hi Toh Hain

Baaki sab se toh Hume koi Vaasta hi nahin 

Par Jaane iss Baat pe unko kyun aata Yekin nahin

Unki Hansi bhi jo itni pyaari hain

Ab to Sharmaane bhi woh humse lagi hain

Hum toh aaj bhi Ummid mein Jeete hain

Ki Pyaar Unko bhi hain

Jo Pyaar Humko bhi hain !!!

Tum

Khusiyon ki Jo Shaugat laaye Woh Tum Ho

Zindagi mein Jo ujala Laaye Woh Tum Ho

Dhup se jo Roshini aaye Woh Tum Ho

Rango ki Jo Bahaar dhaaye Woh Tum Ho

Bus Tum Ho

Har Ek Lamha Jo beet jaaye Woh Tum Ho

Nadiyo mein jo Dhar laaye Woh Tum Ho

Asha Ki Jo ek Kiran pohushaye Woh Tum Ho

Aasma mein udta hua jo pankh hain Woh Tum Ho

Bus Tum Ho

Hawao Ki Jo Sharsharahat hain Woh Tum ho

Pehle Baarish ki jo Mehek Hain Woh Tum Ho

Meetti Ki Jo Khusboo Hain Woh Tum Ho

Jeene Ki Jo Chah hain Woh Tum Ho

Bus Tum Ho

Ab Bus Yehi Lagta hain

Ki Tum Ho

Kyunki har ek Jarre mein Ek Tum Ho

Bus Tum Ho

Bus Tum Ho 

Haan

Sirf Tum Ho  !!!

Kyun ?

Dil Tu Kyun Yeh Karta Hain

Har Pal Kuch Talaasha Karta Hain

Bus Lamho Ko Samente Chalta Hain

Aur Hansi – Aansu Ki Daur Lataa Hain

Dil Tu Kyun Yeh Karta Hain

Kuch Pal Hume bhi Toh Jeene de

Yaado ki Barsaato mein Bheegane De

Jaadu sa ehsaas pane de

Aur Aasma  mein aise hi Udne de

Dil Tu Kyun Yeh Karta Hain

Pyaar Karke Dard Hume deta hain

Dil Tu Kyun Yeh Karta Hain

Toote Baar Baar aur phir bhi Unki Raah mein Chal padta hain

Shot At Sight

It is said – Beauty is the correct  Palatable food to the mind of a Man !

Most Rightly or if so till what extent ? Well I am not scribbling here to justify or nullify this aspect !

But Love at First Sight – is something all Men are fabricated to fall in – Quite Frequently – well most of them. And this First Sight happens every time , man catch a PYT ( Pretty Young Thing).

So what’s the difference –  Girls today are probably far more Practical than Guys in the traditional Falling cases – they do have certain parameters as a Threshold pole-vault. But Men , most of them – even today dots on just – Looks !.

If You are Pretty or Beautiful or Cute or at least have a Sweet smile – You are In !

( Personally I did never understand  - what’s the difference between being Pretty , Beautiful or Cute – I just manage to survive only on their Literal sense ).

And Girls ! They are smart enough to know ( or acknowledge ? )  – we do function this way !

At least – enthrones them( Girls) with Better Control ( Am Being deliberately Sarcastic here ! )

( Couple of recent Bollywood flicks - Dil Toh Baccha Hain Ji , Pyaar Ka Paanchnaama etc - are milking money on such themes.)

However there is no point of Right or Wrong – as things are streamlined - most probably would continue so. To quote in a typical Bollywood way -

Man lafanga bada
Apne mann ki kare
Hoo yun toh mera hi hai
Mujhse bhi na dare
Woh bheege bheege khayalon mein dooba rahe
Main sambhal ja kahun fisalta rahe
Ishq mehnga pade
Phir bhi sauda kare……….

Real on the Reel Platter !

Reality Shows – You can not get enough of them of late ! Seriously !

Just yesterday, while running my fingers on the TV remote , the one thing that irrevocably caught my mind – is the volume of Reality shows ! From the boardroom to the courtroom and from the street to the bedroom – it’s just in-front of you –  at the push of a button !

You can enjoy husband-wife fights , Cat-fights , bitching , back biting, locked-love , love trapping , couple exchanges , Date traps and all the exciting (or sometimes forbidden) things in the world -  you can think of right on your daily real-reel menu ! We always wanted the Nuts , crazy and out-of-the-box and somewhat secret  items on the plate !

So here it is - the show has just grown Enormous , Spooky , Flashy and definitely Filthy !

The Camera is being welcomed on the Red carpet to the once-so-called privacy zone and left no stone unturned to turn it Bigger and Better in the competition.

Mute-point – Grab some quick money , Ride on the Limelight drive and Name with the fame !

Celebrity is another common word now – for we all are stars and celebrities now standing with our head erect of out of the TV screen !

The Hungrier you get , the more professionally instrumental you turn out  and so are the sky-rocketing TRPs on a geometric progression.

And No happy faces are complaining !

But How far is too far ?

Or are we so far that now we don’t even bother how far we are to get near !

Words , Scraps and Craps

On a De-cluttering mode !

Of recently , I have been trying unscrupulously to scrutinize and lighten the mental bag to a larger extent possible !

In the daily struggle &  fight of living , myriads of un-important and trivial things do start piling up our mind . And they do occasionally need a rigorous and  merciless clean-up to keep the system on track and running.

The greatest dis-advantage I have noticed is – we do tend to ignore the small and beautiful things in life – the gifts themselves start smelling pungent and that’s the signal !

Enough would certainly be enough - and definitely so !

The earlier and frequent timely spurts of action do save zillions of  ensuing stitches !

Writing , for sure , is one of the most rejuvenating experiences speaking on such terms – it makes you think out the weeds and harvest. More so , planting the rights mental saplings can never get  easier  than though words.

And why not – for sometimes we need the Smiling Word instead of the Ruthless Sword to kill things !

The Pursuit of Happiness

Happiness –  thy name

You are The Mirage

Paving my Stride

Before the walks

All the while !

And I grow hungrier

Day by day

Everyday

Bit by bit !

Trust I lose

Frost my senses

Break the Joints

Unhook the links

Tickle the Fickle

Stability – Now I do faintly remember Thou !

Happiness !

A life spent in thy Pursuit

Takes a Toll on my Soul

The essence of my presence - Tend to forget

Blind-folded by the Shine

Of Something that Never Exists !

Happiness – You are nowhere to be Found !

With Love - Forever and Always !

Very recently had read in Bangalore Mirror – the story of an old Lady who was left in the lurch by her own son in a dilapidated Old Age Home and been never looked back ! She was torn between the tears and her daily struggle to make both ends meet.

Not surprisingly - it was one of the most horrendous stories I had ever read.

I could never understand the mentality of those Stupid genre of people and even worse to make out the cold nerve – with which they leave their parents pinging the single hope on them.

Parents take those painstaking labour and  effort with a smile to bring up their kid and make him/her stand on their own foot . And later what these grown ups do ? Just walk away !

Parents - they are the people – the only people on this earth who you can blindly trust with , speak your heart out , let yourself be with all your shortcomings and still be treated as if You are the Best thing that ever happened in their life ! The Never-ending  Love and Support for you is something , Parents are just made up of.

If you ever thought of somebody who could hold the Title to be the Biggest Loser  by doing the biggest Sin of life – it’s that anarchic Moron  who let those Hands go which once held him up and made him walk.

These sick-heads suck and pollute this beautiful planet !

On a Happy note , then there are innumerable exceptions of Adults who take optimum care of their Parents and make this planet proud !

We want to see that number Grow !

The Social Network

There was a time ( Aeons ago of course !)  when Net savvy used just to be a flabby concept . Not having a Mail id or a virtual socializing account was not a surprisingly big deal .

Though personally I find it hard to believe those flaccid days without Internet. But then , that’s how it was.

Somehow things did change figuratively ! And virtual socializing turned out to be the gigantic crowd-puller.

Orkut – the social networking site and like almost all first-time-things , it took us by storm – we were college goers when I got my first account and would crave days for a scarp to drop by ! A peek-a-boo with Orkut  was as much of a mandate as air or water. Friend Requests , Scrap boxes , Communities – Subsequently used to be  the second life – Oops ! sorry the First Life in Office ( And yes Life-Saver as well !). Then somehow the Orkut craze started creeping away. Thanks to the other available socializing mediums spurting in by then.

Came Facebook - a brutal blow on Orkut – a fact proven by dozens when they shifted accounts and focus from Orkut to Facebook – I was no different either!

With it’s vast presence and succumbing popularity , Facebook  , for sure, presents itself as the front runner stallion in the virtual rat race .( P.S. - I am deliberately keeping Twitter away here )

But speaking of trend changing every minute , the flavour changes with tastes and taste changes with time.

So what’s next is the big bad question ?

At Times !

Like all they say – You Get the best pinch out of a nowhere ! Sometimes even at those reclusive moments as well.

Thoughts undulating the mind, thoughts you never use to think in your daily bread-earning times. And I mean those on the heavier side !

Probably it’s a sure shot indication of a Human mind that gets Matured as days goes by – the way we are fabricated or functioned to behave.

It’s really amazing how perceptions ,revolving around, change with times – the ways we looked at things as a Teenager so vastly differs when you run in the Twenties. More so on the vast differences if we switch on the kid in us of yesteryear's !

Just keeping three phases in mind – Childhood , Teenage and Adulthood and as we juxtapose the thoughts – it sure turns out that for obvious reasons ( or no obvious reasons !) , we do start viewing things ( certain things) in a rather complicated way sometimes.

You can’t escape getting the mind bent in that shape or rather probably get used to it after sometime ! 

So you see - getting matured and Complicated at the same time is what exactly I am talking about.

Is it really worthwhile to think so ???

Meaningless

Like all they say

Meaningless

Quite untrue to me

Not seems all the same

How often it just happens

Blowing it apart

Falling through fables

Bizarre and boisterous

Noisy clumsy drifts

And peeping somehow

Through loopholes

Ever and Always

To render possibilities

Not Sure

Never was

Still garnering silence

Under your very presence

Seems Untrue though

In thy presence

Moot point

It’s still just the same

Meaningless !