Being Stupid - with Pen & Pencils

Its easier said than done !

Pledges and promises – It was to myself to keep scribbling , however crap , it turns out to be – at least once every month !

Of late , perhaps I am not thinking much ( then did I do before ? :-) ) or just flowing with life or just been too busy ( Really ? ) – nevertheless been out of touch – with my Pen ( from writing ) and my Pencil ( from drawing).

It feels good to write – I really don’t care how it shapes up eventually – words do twist emotions – and when they flow through – all it does is – Loom large….

The irony is today when I sit down to write something , out of all , that I can think of to write - is my own irresponsibility of not writing anything :-) . But then who cares !

Looking back , I did flicker through some of my old drawings – what a mood swinger they had been ! I remember doing them in plenty while I was a kid – with limited sets of colourful pencils but with lots of time. And today when I have the access to the colours , all I miss are the bygone times – the fun frolic , limitless times !

It just seems as yesterday – there had been things I can so vividly recall – silly , stupid things – and I feel proud today – that I did them !

There are some moments , glorious instances , monumentally stupid acts in everybody’s life -  so precious – that no matter what stage of life you remember them , all you get back is a mouthful of smile .

Like I said – I have been flowing – with no bounds and boundaries !

Just like that – who cares about following rules , obeying signals .

Am just Happy with my full packed Bag  – fraught with my pens , pencils , Happy moments , stupidities and the silly Me  !

Undaunted & Least Bothered !

Is your story been inundated partly in the image of my words too ?

My Colour

Colours , Colours 
All over the places
Blacks , yellows , greens ,
Maroons , browns , reds,
Whites 
And some Blues
I’nt find mine
Is it Lost somewhere here
Or down there
Or just that I cant see
My eyes wide open 
And the senses running
Searching my colour 
Beneath the Grass,
Behind the Tress
Or Up above the sky
I can see the rainbow
I don’t need them all
I just need my colour
Lost somewhere 
Sometimes I wanna draw
Or I wanna just look
At being slopped
Coloured 
With My Colour
Somewhere here
Or down there 
So I need it
And I need it Now
With the Untold Meanings
But the Perceived Senses
Strikes Straight 
To Where it should
So Bring it on
I need more 
Some More
Of My Colour !

Perfection - With You , Without You !

Perfection can be killer – and its persuasion too !

The cold-blooded , smooth , unconvincing , unknowing and nescience  killing kind !

Simplest Truth of Life - Nobody is Perfect , Nothing is Perfect – never was , never would be. Halting to look for perfection in people , things , places and life can take the toll out and bless us with the surmounting peace of mind.

Why do we need  a Perfect thing , a perfect partner or a perfect life when everything is created by GOD the way it should be –and that’s Perfect that way !

Bob Marley said - "Who are you to judge the life I live? I know I'm not perfect and I don't live to be. But, before you start pointing fingers, make sure your hands are clean."

          

Very Rightly so – when we too are Imperfect ( yes no matter however  tumultuous it is to digest) – we have No Right to pinpoint the lack of perfection. It needs the Open-eyed Soulful Glance and leaving the judgemental glasses behind !

The small pleasures of life , the Gratitude for the Gifted , the Count of Blessings gets all enveloped .

When it’s a pinching pin , its just not worth - I have packed , locked and cast off the “Perfect” from my life – for I don’t need it , I don’t believe in it and and I don’t give a Damn about it !

Years, months, days, minutes, seconds and encompassing numerous Moments been wasted. It’s just a Mirage behooving the glares – getting rid of it – the sooner, the better!

There is small tiny difference between – Excellence and Perfection – while the former supercharge the spirit, the latter pounds on it ! Striving for the excellence will get us higher but when you strive for something non-existing ( read Perfection)  , you get no-where !

Life feels lighter , smoother and definitely Happier like never before in the absence of it – I breathe well ,  see well ,  taste well , feel well – that’s the Perfect !

That’s all the definition – I got and that’s all I need.

Of Pain , Life and Celebration

Not once , Not twice , its Innumerable times – I have heard it –

“We never Know How strong we are until Being Strong is the only option we are left with !”

Human Beings are one of the most Incredible and Complex creations of GOD. No matter however much we strive and unfold about ourselves , there still remains power and surprise stories within us – Untouched and Un-used. And the feeling - Its confusing , Relaxing , Pleasantly Soothing and Amazingly scary ( sometimes) !

The stamina to deal with Pain comes Naturally and No Pain leaves us the way we used to be. Perception and Faith – are the two utmost things that does change with Pain.

Everytime a pain , a challenge start spinning your head , you come to know of your strengths and tenacity – you never imagined to possess !

Physical and Emotional Pain – one can outrun the other at times and vehemently .

The flavour varies with both – but still the Same at the same time – Relentlessly Bitter and Pungent !

You got to deal with both of them – If you not get daunted by em’ , then Bravo!

You will see a New AVATAR of yourself – a Columbus-like feeling when you know of your dormant and lull mental barons !

Its not the Ideal pathway to ply on – but having tramped down , You don’t remain the Same !

That’s the Best thing About it …

Everytime I get them ( though I don’t Like them) , I make sure , I don’t get down without a Fight !

You gotta feel it , deal it , nail it and kill it – And Capable you are for the same beyond the contemplative !

So Lets Celebrate Life , Celebrate Pain and Make sure the ends are not Lost and everything Plugged in !

Start - Restart

Being Lazy is Fun , magically effortless and We all are So good at  - its just comes Naturally !

We start and stop and then restart and Stop and then Start again to Stop again

- the cycle keeps buzzing around ! For its much easier to start but painstakingly difficult to keep up the Tempo to keep humming. Its Easy to Start but difficult to Keep up the steam flowing !

Its not really surprising that – we  Quit  smoking ( Literally at least) every month , on every birthday or on every New Year day – for when it comes to the Quitting deal , very apparently , it’s a One-day affair or for some - the determined ones , some days affair !

Enrol in Gym and hit it every days punctually , for the starting week and the tempo keeps popping out gradually out of the habitual bag as days pass by.

The same thing goes in Love –  To fall in for Somebody is easy , to preserve the Feeling and the Promises till the Last breathe is what makes it all count and that’s  when the strides  gets trampled often for many.

A better example – waking up in the morning –  there cant be a more vivid example than myself – I forgot the count of my Pledge to myself to wake up early every day . And believe me , out of all my days on Mother earth so far , there been few ,very few when I have lived upto the pledge .

When I took my bike , I told myself not to break any Traffic signal ever in my life and the Best thing – Just few days after that , I was trying to bite  my tongue when I got the Letter from Bangalore Traffic Police for Signal breaking Fine .

It is said –“ First we make the Habit and then the Habit  makes us”

I don’t know about others for me at least its been just the other way round – The Habit has already Made Me and it is so much so recondite and sturdy that  rising to  Another Habit looks  staggeringly  monumental now. A finished Business revitalizes the Spirit and an Unfinished one drains peace out !

Come face to face on the Sustaining  Business–  The Hardship shoots up to retain the things said , keep up the Promises and to continue the good work.

( Personally whenever I attain any small pinch of such a feat – I indulge myself to self-treat and Gosh !

I divert again ..)

But the Best thing about the whole process is to flexing the effort muscles  - Start , Stop/Pause , Restart and the wheel keeps plying ……

Optimistically Speaking – We haven’t Given Up or Given In – Well that’s  just to ready myself to  Indulge in Another Feat of  a Glass of Chilled Beer !

LOL !

We All are , by default, Prone to Being Lazy – Accept it – it  just takes one thing or another to get this fact Highlighted  !

The Lines

Lines of Life  - Binds us , Separates us , Distinguishes us and Qualifies us for the esteemed entries into the Edifice of Being Human !

There is a Very Thin Line which the very existence between being Optimistic , Pessimistic and being Realistic.

Optimism says - the facts you think you can change , Pessimism disappoints you in that aspect and being Realistic compels you to contemplate – if the Effort is really worth changing the fact !

Life comes a Full circle when we move alongside the Perimeter of its nooks and corners . You feel the Bad , you feel the Good and then You Realise that’s what makes  – Who You are Today ! This part and parcel so much necessitates of our daily being and enduring the Secrets .

Things change , Sometimes don’t  change and sometimes its somewhere between the two. As ramifying and as  flurrying as it sounds , the worst is sometimes the Best and the vice versa.

Way above our manipulating minds , there resides the conscience – its Hard , real Hard to get hold of it though – for enlightening the best decisions , the best changes and the best methods to accomplish. It takes years to Learn and Unlearn as needed . Learning the Ropes gets as much easier as nerve-wracking unlearning is for certain matters !

And Interestingly ,more often than not , we just keep beating about the bush – here and there – flowing with no mind. 

Effortless ? Might be the Answer , but in the long run , Things needing to get zeroed in , multiplies in the geometric progression. Sometimes for the glory earned in the Past , we Pay in the Present and the once-full pocket cries for a handful of coins.

The Pessimistic and the sadist will cry over the spilled milk in the present , the Optimistic will think he will get another bowl of it and the Realistic will make sure the part left out should not be given up At any cost .

This defines life , this defines us , and definitely defines the Line of actions .

So Where do you fit in exactly ?

Woman's Day

Women - They say are one of the Most Beautiful creations of GOD !

And For most out there , “Moms” are the Only Woman , They take this statement Always to hold true from childhood through Teenage til Adulthood .

Thanks to I-don't-settle-with-ONE-girl or I-don't-care attitude , or the Evergreen Chase-the-Girl-till-They-Get-Pataoed or for that matter I-Like-TimePass-Only Attitudes,  the Next Special seat stays very apparently Empty.
Then there are people who never ever believed in Love without  Intentionally trying to hurt anybody though !

But Things change ,perceptions change and they do - so prominently under your very nose - that You just stand there - Bewildered - Eyes Wide Open - And the Inevitable happens !

Distntly heard Somewhere - Falling for Someone is  Just PLAIN MAGIC - All Your Tactics, Resolutions and Grits flows through when You start Swimming in HER Eyes. And You wouldn't even have the Slightest Inkling at the outset as you get Drowned deep down and down.

When You know - She is Standing Out There -
Looking Only At you -
To Hold You ,
To Support you in thick & thin
With Loads of Trust in her eyes ,
Waving those Lustrous Hair
And The Prettiest Smile on those Lips -
You know
SHE is the Special one.

The One made - Only For You - And You feel priviledged, breathe Faster and Your Chest Size blows up in Pride .

That's the Beauty of that Sizzling Moment - Spectacular and Marvelous.

And then You stand with your Head Erect - Ecstatic and Bumbling with that Magical feeling.

So be Thankful to the Special Woman(Women) In your Life who made you realise - You can Fall in Love Too ! ( Or even if You don’t have Anyone as yet , just Say Advance Thanks to Her till She Emerges in your Life – Remember the Lines from “THE SECRET” ? "What You Think About And Thank About , You Bring About" . Philosophical ?? Nah :-)

Lastly On My Personal front , I Would like to say -
"Happy Woman's Day ”

All You Women out there , celebrate the Day 8-March with Pride and Grandeur  – For - the rest 364 days belong to us – The Male sapiens ..
Ha Ha Ha …..:-)

Coalesced

Clueless , Senseless 
Is All that You Feel
Summoning on the Random Emotions
That Taketh you on a Stroll
Behind the Painstaking 
Efforts to keep moving
Somewhere You lose
The very Essence of Things
To Fall by
Ostracized 
The Inside you
Stops you 
To Move by
Behind those Terrific Glaze
Somewhere Down by
Amidst the Smile
You miss 
The Tears Dropping by
And that breaks you down
When you frown
All that goes behind
Just mows it down
Senses you don’t see
Nor the Sighs passing by
Breathes heavier
Trickles sugarcandies swim across the air
Know not what you do
Guess not what you should
Answers that befalls 
Would it or Would it Not !!!

Ruled Timings or Timed Rules

Sticking Rules and Breaking Rules – And the dilemma pursues the matter as does the war between Heart & Mind.

It’s not very often that we prefer to go out of the Rules - for Rules means being on the safer side on the Highway.

But then - what if  You don’t know the Rules ?

Or if you don’t know What you really do want ?

There can’t be a more confusing and irritating situation – that you can think of right now.

As someone rightly said – “When you don’t know Where you want to Go , You can Pick any Way to Stride on !”

So the risk is – If you don’t fall for Something , you would fall for Anything !

The easiest words delivered to counteract is – Get the “What” clarified , identified or unmasked. But then is it really that easy ?

Damn not ! There are situations in life which can keep you baffled , intrigued and befuddled – in a way that you never thought , is possible.

So here's a Red Carpet Welcome to the Real Life my friend !

It means you are knocking at the doors of life or you need more time and it definitely means – You are so much Alive and certainly Podering over the whereabouts!

It’s just a normal and very common temperament of life – But whats equally Important is to get the Answers on Time. Having said that – we have so much Penchant for forbidden things that at the end we just end up doing them. However if that keeps the Happiness Quotient justified , we are Right in doing so !  Being on The Right Side at Right Time at the Right moment can get  delayed , Intentionally on unintentionally.  

None the less Sometimes Delay means Denial  - and that can dig the ground for A Burial !

So Keep the Fingers crossed if the Eyes are Wide Open J